Seeing Beyond the Darkness

My hand reaches out into the darkness
But is then drawn back sharply
When it begins to disappear from the light
A strong breath is released from within my lungs
And my eyes move down and look into the emptiness of my keyboard
I then place my hand over my cup
Feeling the heat from my Chai Latte
I shut my eyes and use my index finger to circle the rim of the cup
My breathing slows and I’m calm
And then, is when it hits me
I remember the past few days
Of when it was quiet and I was alone in this room
In the darkness
I was crying
I could have almost disappeared.

Sometimes I think that people are selfish to supply their own needs
And disregard the feelings of others.
When you are pushed aside
It almost feels you have been thrown down a well
With no way of getting out without help
And then you realise that you have to accept what has happened
And release yourself without help.

Still sat staring into the emptiness of my keyboard
My eyes are fixated on the “I”
And I realise that it is I
It’s me
Why should I sit crying over someone else
I should remember that I still have me and my life
Adventures don’t just happen
They happen when we make them happen!

So here’s me putting myself out there once again
Not knowing what will happen
But not caring
As if we let life hurt us everyday
Then we are not living to know that something else is out there
That somebody else is out there waiting in the light!